IDTKM…
I don’t want them to know
What I’m doing or how
I want to scream out loud but then
I fear I’ll be saved even when
I don’t think I want to be
Even though I don’t want me
IDTKM…
The words are always the same
Scoring that singular track inside my head
It’s a fatalist phrase that should never be said
And it hurts that I can’t shake myself free
From just a few words
It should be so easy
But something about the rhythm,
Those sounds
The intent
It just cycles round and around
Cutting deep and spitting blood
While I’m restrained by ought and should.
IDTKM…
Saying them is something that
I hope I never have to do
Because if I say those words aloud
I know that “I’ve Decided To…”